new month

first day of june signifies alot.
probably one of the best days of 2009.
i so cant believe that day came so fast.
really blessed n fortunate n lucky :):):):)
though im kinda in a pool of shit,im stil feeling happy

sometimes being nice is so easy
yet ppl jus choose to doubt
how silly to judge based on ur personal past n biasness
instead of objectively viewing the person.
i dun deny that i might be guilty of that at times.
thankfully things have improved for the better

there are many flaws of myself which i find pointless to deny
possessive,clingy,dominating,sceptical and the list goes on
i wonder is it jus me or there are ppl like me.
more importantly,can anyone actually tolerate these behaviour?
much as i wish to transform myself n make someone's life better off,
i find that im always falling back on where i begun
making no progress at all.
its arguable that this was actually the results of someone else's actions
nevertheless it is frustrating for me
i wanna do good to myself n to ppl ard me
why cant that opportunity be presented to me?
i feel so denied of the chance
a unique n so very special relationship lost jus like that
such a shame.
on the contrary,i should actually feel glad that i learnt a lesson here
enriched a great deal of my mind
shaping part of my thoughts n actions nowadays
i consider slightly more carefully abt issues
i make it a point to process information longer in my brains
before making any move.
this doesnt seem like me,i know.
since nth is absolute,it is jus right that i morph into something different
something more amazing n better than before
:)
i wonder why am i ranting so much
n i decided to come clean
i wana b heard
not by anyone but jus that someone
i really dun care if this message might ever get across to anyone
but being able to be myself matters more.

now now,
where did Goofy go?
how come the entire orchard road oso dun have? :(
stupid lah. wait wait wait. now its gone.
somethings jus CANT wait.
now i noe.
SALE is on EVERY corner nowadays.
can wait?
haha,is the answer obvious enough?